Feet in Sand

Disco Shawn plays the music of my soul

2005-10-23T08:26:16Z

Drum n' Bass is the music of my soul and Disco Shawn plays it a LOT. Yes my soul is italicized.

Hour	Artist	Song	Extra Data	Album
12am
	Hive, Keaton, Echo & Gridlok	Violent Sound	-	-

1am
	Gorillaz	Dare	-	Soulwax remix

2am
			-	-

3am
			-	-

Disco Shawn is a man who cares

2005-09-25T10:14:15Z

Disco Shawn will talk over the Track of Badness and indicate to you, the listener, that yes this Paul Van Dyke track SUCKS! And he will then STOP the track and play something better.

Thank you Disco Shawn.

3:55 AM
I am listening to Electronica with a COWBELL right now! And I love it. Especially that the cow bell is subtle enough to not ruin the track. But prescient enough that I can *hear* it.

Hour	Artist	Song	Extra Data	Album
12am

1am

2am
	Pendulum	Slam	-	sex ripping beats
3am
			-	-

Rage does not begin to describe this feeling.

2005-09-04T10:07:04Z

I am horrified beyond language in any form.

I didn't protest that "war" over there. I didn't march to impeach bush. But, I may be calling in sick on September 7th to attend the National Day of Emergency Action in San Francisco.

theantimodel gives us some vid clips with Reporters Doing Their JOBS! Sticking it to the Man and not taking any of his crap!

Subsonic theme: Not A Test! - old skool breaks

2005-08-28T07:39:27Z

From the Front to the back to the side to the front to the back to the side to the side to the front. Come ON

Hour	Artist	Song	Extra Data	Album
12am
	M.I.A.	Bucky Done Gun	-	-
	DJ Icie	Not A Test	-	-
	Audio Bullys	Shot You Down (Bang. Bang)	Nancy Sinatra. original was in Kill Bill I	-
1am

2am

3am
	The Juan Maclean	Tito's Way	-	-

Subsonic favorites - Theme: Bombs

2005-08-07T08:24:55Z

Subsonic doesn't suck anymore. So, I need to start keeping track of tracks I like.

Hour	Artist	Song	Extra Data	Album
12am
	M.I.A.	Pull Up the People
	Inspector Double Negative & the Equal Positives	Girls
1am
	Lady Sovereign	Cha Ching	Cheque 1, 2 remix
	De Falla	Popozuda Rock n' Roll	from the compilation Rio Baile Funk: Favela Booty Beats
2am
	M.I.A.	Fire Fire
	O Corrascos	Pique Ta	from the compilation Rio Baile Funk: Favela Booty Beats
	Sovereign	Random

What I know about my migraines Today

2005-04-30T17:21:36Z

I posted the following entry in migraines here.

The previous thread started by xf a lot of you discovered symptoms in common you didn't know where actually migraine symptoms: yawning, watery eyes, etc. I might be getting a job soon and plan to take myself to a headache clinic benefits or not. I may be having symptoms that I don't realize are migraine. I found xf's post very heartening because I often can't tell at the outset of head pain whether or not I'm going to have a migraine or a head ache. For example, just last week I figured out that shoulder pain with surface numbness is a migraine symptom for me.

I get migraines with stress, with a release of stress, when I'm unemployed and the week before my period *everything* acts up. I also have scoliosis which gives me low back sciatic like pain. So the week before my cycle my entire right side is in agony. I have two heating pads one for my low back and one for my upper back/shoulders. Vicoden and tylenol help with the back pain and I used to take bextra but it's been in the news lately as a bad drug. I could try flexeril again, but... I just realized my Dr. is being a jerk about my meds. Well, we'll just have to have a chat about that. *eg*

For mild migraines I take Amidrine with coffee or a caffeine loaded OTC med like excedrin, for the more severe migraines I take 25-50mg of imitrex. I also take the herb feverfew daily which reduces the severity and frequency of my migraines that are non stress related. Sometimes just getting my hair wet with cold water helps a *lot*. Ice helps, but not all the time. I think sometimes the ice is too cold. I don't know if I'm particularly light sensitive. I don't seek out a dark room as treatment, but I don't like bright light even when I'm not migraining. And I wear sunglasses at the supermarket sometimes because the florescent lights blur my vision which makes me apprehensive and tense which, over a period of time, triggers a migraine. I've noticed that this particular light sensitivity is better if I've just eaten and am chugging fluids and caffeine. Oh! Sometimes fried or fatty foods really help with a migraine. Like chinese food.

For the migraines I can't find any discernable food triggers unless it's dairy or wheat. I don't have the discipline or income to give up wheat in house with 5 roommates and most days I'd rather have migraines than give up 1/2 & 1/2 in my coffee or cheese on my pizza. Plus common triggers like wine and coffee *help*. Which leads me to believe I may not have any food triggers at all. If it's a stress related migraine alcohol and caffeine at the same time help a lot. Anyone else have that experience?

I also have hay fever 9 months out of the year starting in April. Last December I had rebound headaches coming off of 8 months of daily aleve and sudafed for the sinus headaches. 12 hour doses of aleve sudafed is the best thing for my sinus headaches. This year from now 'till November I'll be doped up on claritin, nasaqort AQ (a none-too-cheap steroid inhaler like flonase) sudafed and OTC painkillers like excedrin, aleve, or ibuprofen. This year I'm russian rouletting the OTC pain killers to see if a) any are more effective with other symptoms like migraine and back pain and 2) to see if it helps with the rebound headaches. It might help with the rebound headaches, but it's not really helping when there's a pollen count higher than 7. I miss the days when I could chop up a 4mg Chlor-Trimeton into 4 doses and take 1 4 hour sudafed and call it a day. I miss the days when all I needed was seldane. Oh, please don't mention allegra to me (seldane's replacement) I can't even begin to afford it.

The symptom I hate the most is brain fuzz. Sometimes my first indication that a particular headache is a migraine is if I start to feel stupid or fuzzy headed. I have a hard time comprehending questions that involve more than a monosyllabic response. My ability for form complete sentences diminishes greatly. I can't keep up conversations with people and am very easily irritated and frustrated. I start snapping at my roommates and family. I hate this symptom the most. Because it makes me stupid it can sometimes take me two+ hours to notice it and by then the migraine might have crept up the back of my head and taken hold. All I can do is wait it out.

ETA
I'm 27 and have had migraines since I was 22. I've had sinus headaches since I was 10. I'm left handed and 98% of my migraines are right sided. I had a massage therapist tell me that my right side isn't strong enough to handle tension and goes straigh to pain. I take so many vitamins. I've found that higher than 150% RDA doses of calcium, magnesium and zinc help with the stress and tension. I've also found that bumping the calcium up to 200% the week before and during my cycle helps with cramps and overall well being. I also take St. Johns Wort for moderate depression.

Migraine info, Larry King Live

2005-04-30T15:47:51Z

CALLER: Yes, my 14-year-old daughter gets severe left-sided head pain and numbness, but she doesn't get the aura, light- sensitivity and nausea. I'm just wondering, is this still a migraine?

L. KING: Dr. Diamond, is that a migraine?

DIAMOND: It most certainly is a migraine. It's one-sided headache. She doesn't have to have the warning signals. Only about 25 to 30 percent of people get a warning of their migraine.

Full transcript.

Happiest and Crappiest cities

2005-04-27T08:38:52Z

Julia... this does not look good. According to this list it's a good thing you're leaving the Portland dream behind.

And this is *hysterical*. Do not have beverage while reading. Oh and show Dan. Because it amuses me that I keep imagining him laughing with us or being disgusted at us.

Each time I think it's the last time

2005-04-13T14:08:41Z

But it's not. And then I feel like this will never end. I'll never get out from under this. Is this self-pity? Is this Clinical Depression? Am I just grieving?

Just.

Such a small word. Implies a petty matter. If I could just...

Get to sleep.
Get out of bed.
Do Yoga twice a week.
Swim.
Keep my desk clean.
Organize my new "office."
Check my voicemail when I know clients have called.
Keep on top of my business.
Not hate what I see in the mirror 9 times out of 10.
Not quake with a vibrating rage under my skin that feels like home.
Not feel so hopeless.
Find some joy inside myself.

There have been talks of me going to Napa for a respite. I am (was?) resistant to this idea. I'm tired of this sickness. Whatever it is. This dead rage. I feel dead. And I feel like I could bite the head off of a chicken if it looked at me cross eyed. I feel heavy and endlessly tired. I feel apathetic and emotionally spent. Like my charge card for emotions has been maxed out and is now getting into the red. Maybe I do need a rest. But I'm tired of resting. I want to go on.

I feel so far removed from my joy that I wonder... Am I always like this? I know that I'm not. I can remember joy. This last month seems like a year. Yesterday was a week ago. I feel very much in the present. And I can't escape it.

Skip-A-Day. Take 2.

2005-04-08T18:53:26Z

It's almost noon. I'm still up. This not sleeping thing has sailed past annoying and is downright troubling. I'm not tired. It's 11:40 AM and I haven't slept yet. And yesterday? I think I got, at most, 4 hours sleep. If all goes well I should go to bed tonight, while it's still *tonight*.

Not. Tired.

Oddly? The thing that makes me want to get out of bed and skip sleep is the fact that there isn't much light coming in through the attic vents. It's dark and gloomy outside. It's been raining on and off since 7:00. I want to go outside and ~~run errands~~ frolic in the damp weather. Maybe the pollen won't eat my brain today. *kicks pollen in the nads*

Oh and moving my office into the living room sucks. A lot. I have a spot in the garage... the *garage*! But even more so I *really* don't want to be on the living room couch late at night when step-bro Mark's girlfriend is visiting. Nope. Must make the garage more enticing. Maybe I'll get youngest bro Dustin to help me put up christmas lights. Yeah... we only have like a bajillion strands left over from the art booth.

11:45 - My alarm clock just went off. I'm supposed to be getting up now. *sigh*

*overly dramatic laying of hand on forehead* WOE IS ME!!! I hope there's half-and-half in the fridge.

I think I'll go wake up Dustin. God forbid I should suffer alone. Hee!

I hear the pitter patter of little feet.

2005-04-08T13:36:30Z

Two feet above my head. Something just scurried across the roof.

This makes me smile.

Moving everywhere...

2005-04-05T06:02:42Z

So my office is no more! It is now in the living room so Dustin can his have own bedroom. My lounge? Is in the garage in a storage cubicle - pictures forthcoming. But for now here are some pictures of the new living room and some gratuitous cat photos!

Let me in! Let me in!
Living Room	Ange's Office	Ange taking over the living room with her office
Angela's view from the couch
Desk	Dustin's bedroom	Kitchen and Brian's bedroom

So far 27 is a mixed bag

2005-03-30T08:18:03Z

I have had an on again off again relationship with Insomnia for many years. Every once in a while Insomnia will blow into town and stay for a few weeks, sometimes months. Camping out in my favorite chair, using my stuff, misplacing my cell phone and generally wreaking havoc on my life. But Insomnia's not all bad! I do love the dawn on a rainy day. The gentle fall of sprinkling water and the lush green of the trees in the quiet morning light.

This morning I went for a short walk to the mailbox. It was really beautiful outside. I had planned to Skip-A-Day to catch up on sleep, but once the house was awake I scuttled up to my room and burrowed under the covers. It seams that Insomnia doesn't want to share. Possessive bitch. And she likes it when I take pictures. These are from 6:30 this morning.

In other news.

Will has started a small herb garden on the roof. You can see the tomatoes (?) in the first picture. He's also planted herbs and stuff.
Heidi and her beau, Bret, have decided to be "just friends." Much to my relief.
Dustin is moving back in! We have rearranged my entire office to accommodate a loft bed for him.
I've reclaimed my original birthday. I turned 27 last Sunday, March 27th. Dustin took me to Todai. He'd never been. I've renamed him a Seafoodatarian. That boy *loves* his crab, sushi, fried shrimp and lobster balls. He will not, however, pick apart the corpse of a lobster or crayfish. It gives him the heebees.
As more days pass I become more of a geek. I have seen Constantine 3 times. Twice in the theatre. *Twice*! I love comic book matrixy rip off sci-fi movies. Really a lot.
I love my hair.
I passed my driving test last Monday - just shy of turning 27.
I have conquered the Freeway.
I am going to be taking over for Mark as the primary bread winner. Mark is most likely quitting his job in June. This is not as stressful a proposition as it was last month when Will was out of work and Dustin wasn't here. Now that Will is working and Dustin is coming back I think we can give Mark that year sabaticle he deserves.
Allergy season has set upon me and has very sharp nails. It Won't Let Go. I want to move to a wet coastal town. Sadly I can't see how this would be possible for at least 3 more years.